Lost souls

What would you do if you have the same amount of resource as the charactors in Revenge? Would you just do all the fund rising thing the rich wifes seem to do, or "teach" everyone who has wrong you a lesson or... both.. Emotion is something so hard to control. Have't you felt like sometimes your head about to explode. I think those type is easier to deal with becasue it's fast. You were pissed, you were done. The harder ones are the ones follows you years and years and you don't know how and can't change anything.And it finally became the situation that you might need to see theripist. Regardless, it still feels it never leaves you. Keeping the amount of anger inside you is not healthy. But wanting to revenge is not right either. All of us all have something that want to do something about but shouldn't and couln't. I wonder why guys just like to hide from things? If you read my past few day postings, you would know where I thought Brett's problem was and caused this big blow up at the end. But then look back, when we first started talking that was already his problem, wasn't it? When he started telling me that he had not sleep in the same wrong with his wife for a long time, that he slept with his daughter, but he never wanted to talk things thru about it. The problem was so easy and clear... boom.. the samething since day one. In his case, it's more like he didn't want to to do anything about it instead of couldn't do anything about it. Oh well... at least this is the first step, the truth is out there, then I guess if I hear the continuation of the story, I do; or the name of Brett Choengwei Ong will just fake into my past. Til today, I still have not recieved the court paper. You wonder if he purposely not sending down or not. You must have noticed that I have asked many questions in my postings... because yeah.. I don't know either... I am also a lot soul.. whats the diff between live and die? what's the diff about many things.

Why does it alwyas feel like womens fault?

I am usually a peaceful person . Most guys say they think I am an attractive, which I dont care. If you have been reading my stuff on and off. You know I am supporting and very able and in many senses do not need a guy in my life financially. And I DEFINITELY will not break other people's happy family. if you read my periods few postings, you will know. Oh god... Brett Cheongwei Ong, just own up and ups or register mail already. The court date was March 12 and I have not gotten anything today. I am going to assume everything is in my favor regardless the gossip. I started to think that Brett Cheongwei Ong is still hopping a chance with me once his divorce going thru to be with me so I have not gotta any formal paper yet. Right now, unless he gives me a greatest excuse, he is the biggest coward on the face of earth I have seen. Everything is the girl's fault and she liked me... oh please stop flattery yourself.. even my mom thought you were short.. (that was the funnest part i heard) But everyone, what do you see about this brett person so far? He had no guts to own up his action. He has to use legal system (which barely does anything to me ) to prove to his wife. And at the same time, he is not sending me he final decision. Does it affect my life in anyway, No! I replied the case only because I wanted the truth out. So if you guys have husbands who travel for work open, keep your eye on them. So here... Brett has 2 kids. if you want your kids to be a standup citizen, own up, and be responsible for his or her action, Brett is not gonna be a good dad for you. All he has done was.. please dont tell..I know it's hard but I hope Hsuline can see thru all these and make the best decision for the kids. I am sorry that I actually never had any intention with your husband, I work and am in a male dominate industry so being friends with guys is normal for me. You need to decide whether any friendly girl to him that he would start talking about or he is just really not happy with the marriage. I am a single girl. I really can do anything I want but because my upbringing I would not break people's marriage. my parents still go out holding hands. I have said lots to him regarding the kids. Such as in a "cool" parents home might not be too good of an idea. If you think it gives you a sense of safety, file the restraining order away. It is not affecting me. you have met me. Do you really think I would bother to be a home trekker..I hope you think thru and leave me a clean name. Otherwise, realistically, it does not accept me too much..

Continuing.....

Ok.. I think I did mention that I was not living in the same country with Mr. Brett Cheongwei Ong (if you read my posting from yesterday). He put in a restraining on me and 2 weeks after the court date. I still did not receive any decision paper. So I am just gonna put my college education in to this...If I don't know or anyone delivers any paper to me and asking me to sign, I was in favor. Either way, no proof of me receiving anything, I am free as a bird. Anyways... above is not important at all. Judge can decide either way. I am like 4 hours by flight away. I can care less. Something just came into my head that what Brett Cheongwei Ong told me, which I have asked my friend who is a dad that whether I was overly concerned. Brett and his wife have been sleeping in separate room for awhile. He mentioned to me that he has been sleeping with his daughter in his daughter's room this entire time. While.... in the mean time, he has a son younger than the daughter. So a 8 year old son wouldn't mind at all. Thinking back when I was a kid, I kicked my younger sister out of my room when I was 10. I would rather sleeping in the bath tub if i am sharing a room with my dad. So I was thinking... should i be concerned? It's not like I care too much about his family but... kids are Innocent. Should I at least get some authority to check on it? But what would a little kid say? Parents have the main authority.