Was watching HBO mini serial "John Adams" the other day..  I don'tt hink I totally agree with it. God makes us differently already. Some people were born ill. Some people were born smart... some poeple were born in a rich family...Some poeple born beautiful.. How can you say it's equal? There is nothing in the world is really fair and equal. It sure was a interesting time period. I will have to watch the serials again though. The old English was not super easy to understand. But it just really got me thinking how could "All men were born equal"... there is just no way...

Have you ever felt God abandoned you?

Have you ever felt that God abandoned you or set you up for something? I feel that all the time. I mean in the big schema of things my life is fine. I am not homeless. I am not jobless. I am doing good. But spiritually or mentally.. I am as broke as anyone can be. I tried to deal with it for years but so far... the only thing it has worked was... just ignore it.. and not to think about it. I ask what God has in stored for me all the time. I just can't get it... can't at all.