I think this picture of Edward in Eclips making him looking like he gained some weight..

Comparing to the picture in New moon... Edward definitely has a fuller face..

Bad online shopping experiece

I recently purchased this silver wrist cuff from this guy named Kevin Kelley. I think his username on Etsy is Kevin44043. He has his own website as well. He makes silver jewlery. My purchase never arrived. I tried to contact the seller to get more information about the shippment. The seller did not give me more information nor help to track the package down. Instead, he was very rude and unwilling to help. I wonder if my purchase was ever shipped. I hope I can get my money back from paypal.

I am sure he does great job on the items he sell. But being rude and unwilling to help coustomer made me wonder if it was worth it to take chances with him again. He even told me "Don't cry about it" in the reply on my email inquiring about my purchase.

Weight gain without any reason

Have you ever have the experience that you are doing anything right, exercising, watch your diet. But you are still gaining weight like no tomorrow. I have gone to family dr. but all the result comes back normal. I am not a big girl but I am considered big in my culture backgroud. I am running out of the idea of what to do. Because of my ethic backgound, most people think I do not need to do anything to loose weight. But for the things I eat and the stuff I do. I should not have been puttin on weight. I am going on a trip within a month. I think I will give Naturopath a try. Maybe there is some Yin and Yang not balaced in me.

God bless me... I hope this will work when I actually starts Naturopath..

Fit in... or fit out

I just saw some pictures a friend of mine took of me a few weeks ago at some gathering... I was like OMG...I looked so bad..

But then it gets me thinking again that regularly we dress and look nicely to fit into the society. It's not to be Bella that she just didn't really give a shit that knowing she was different. But she was never forced into a later career life that you kinda really have to fit in. Otherwise, you might not get a job. I echo a lot of things Bella does and the stuff she says I say them a lot too. That I am also a loner like to spend time by myself doing the thing I like to do just like her at the beginning of the Twilight book. It does not mean that people go out party on Friday night that I should do the same. Bella is special in Twilight because she is kinda odd to be a teenager. My life is kinda like hers minus the crazy vamps and wolfs and I do have a professional job that I have no choice but to dress nicely so I can fit into the work environment.

But for me to say OMG.. I looked so bad. Was I judging me by the normal stander that if I were skinny and looking good.... I was IN.. but if I was not... I was OUT.

It would be interesting to see when Bella gets older and how she deals with stuff like this. But of course, we all know how to books go to the end so it would not have happened at all. But consider she is so real as a teenagers to the readers, it would be cool to see what she would have become as a college student.. or anything like that.. I was so much like her at her age. I wonder her life would have been like mine or not

Why are most girls so in love with Bella

Most of us have been thru heard broken. Most of us have felt not to fit in. I have gone through a major heart break myself. When I heard Bella said to Jacob "I will never run the same", it hit me so hard that I totally have thought that to myself before. Not many of us are as lucky as Bella that the love of her life came back but I am sure we have all shared the same thoughts at one point of our lives.
Unless you are super beautiful or super rich, most of us have felt not fitting in especially during the time of high school. Most of our lives sucked. Most of us hated everything of ourselves. But Bella just seems to accept it.
Yes, for sure Rob Patterson played Edward beautifully. Many of the teenage girls are in love with Twilight saga because of him. I want to say that a lot of us also in love with the books is not because of the hot young actors. Most of us were Bella at least one point of our lives. (Minus all the Vamps and wolfs) We kinda see ourselves in her here and there....